What Is Your Totem?

Hello All

I've had a lot of insights through my new friend over these past few days. She's been popping into many of my dreams, and when I was reading up on "fox medicine" in some of the totem sites, I was really struck by how many of the traits resonated so strongly with me (was actually astounded that I've never connected with the fox before - she came to me so vividly when Adamus began talking about totems, it was like she'd been waiting in the wings for ages!).

One of the biggest pieces of wisdom so far for me is the idea of embracing the qualities I have always possessed, and yet somehow wanted to "fix" or change. The fox is known for a kind of "invisible" quality, which quietly observes. I've always been one of the "quiet ones" in group situations - including this message board for many years. This "shyness" (for lack of a better term) has always bothered me - and I've often been envious of those "life of the party" types - but my new friend has provided me with a fresh perspective on this quality. It's allowing me to truly relax into myself JUST AS I AM (wow) and to embrace the unique wisdom that is inherent in ALL of our diverse human characteristics.

So (somewhat ironically I suppose) here I am putting myself out there, starting a thread for the first time ever and sharing this with you all... and I'm really interested to hear what unique brands of wisdom your totems are bringing to you!

Susan
Canada

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My big black dog is teaching me non-judgment and unconditional love as he is a constant presence, just resting near me, or observing me without judgment.

Lu
USA

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Groundhog. I trust myself. My inner 'wiring' knows when to go underground into the darkness, and when to come out into the light of the upper world.

Radhika
USA

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Deer suits me well. I sorta see the world through big innocent eyes, and I'm jumpy & skittish & easily overwhelmed as heck! I am a very keen observer & can see and hear things that aren't shown or said out loud, I can "read the shadows" as one deer totem explanation said, and understand how the world works in the big picture. Also represents blending of the spiritual & physical energies & spiritual attunement. It's also a totem of unconditional love, which certainly fits. What it reminds me to work on is my gentleness. I have both that & a very fiery nature. I have the unconditional love, but liking (well, what I now see as "honoring" for different paths) is a different story, and I have a lot of conflict because of those two duking it out. Deer comes now to remind me to take the gentle way & temper my fire.

Ameya
USA

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Chipmunk. The animal medicine is trust.

Going forward, this is one thing I really choose. I've already had one experience recently of the mind not making sense of the 3d reality, felt like I was re-looping in a vortex. Breathe and trust and everything started to flow again. Whew.

And I'm nuts about how cute and quick they are!

Nina
Canada

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First a black panther popped into my mind, but Adamus said to wait… and then came a common fly into my mind. A Fly? That's not too impressive, huh? But then, a fly is winner against the gravity and a very social being, and it comes into your space out of nowhere. Alas - why not a fly!

Katharina
Germany

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I don't feel I chose my lion. It's more like he chose me. Lions are thought of as powerful I guess, and fierce and protective…but I experience him as very gentle and wise actually. I also feel that I AM my lion…so if there is a protective quality about him (which there is), it is the part of me that is on the alert and feeling the energies for me so I can relax myself perhaps. The more time I spend with my companion, the more I feel like he and I are one.

Anya
Finland

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My totem is also a black panther, a sleek, purringly beautiful, powerful and protecting friend. She carries ever so elegantly a deep emerald collar and doesn't tolerate very well, intrusions that may harm me.

Mike
South Africa

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At first I thought about a panther - but that was thinking. What came, very powerful, was a snake. I do like snakes, so I didn't understand what my first rejection was; because it isn't a furry or feathery totem?

Now I understand: snakes are rejected by many, because of fear of the unknown.
Just like people who do not fit in.

Speak about fitting in – my snake totem is fitting: When they've grown, Snakes shed their old skin.

Frida
Germany

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Mine is a donkey. So much joy he brings, so much fun to play with him.

Els
Netherlands

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Why Are You Here?

Dear Friends,

The question posed to Linda by Adamus was also posed to me yesterday from “someone” in my etheric vicinity. Let's just say it was my soul.

I came up with a variety of answers in my brain, but was pretty vexed when I kept being asked the question, "why are you here?" I must admit, I came up with another question. In some exasperation I simply asked my soul, "why are you here?

I received the answer, "thank you for finally asking."

As I gazed out my new apartment windows I started gently weeping. My soul said, without words, "I am here to create new pathways for more of me/us/god to fully be here. To create new fields to play in." The background feeling was one of a Being who is marrying fire with water, into matter – a long and laborious process with a huge reward. Being here.

Thank you for listening, I hope this helps. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed with the responsibility of being here I forget that this is all for joy and fun...in the long run.

I am so looking forward to the moment I have fully integrated my past and future into the present and can simply sit on a rock and smile without having to change the world. No more..."hey hey hey, I got it!" "Run this way, run that way!"

Much love and respect,
Maureen
Canada

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Intense experience...and profound

Arun
Canada

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To share, to learn, to play.

Sally
USA

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“To know and experience myself as God/Goddess made flesh.”

That's exactly what I heard, when asking myself, "why am I here?" The 'flesh' part is kind of weird. Maybe it was an old religious aspect answering me.

Margaret
USA

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"To breathe fully Free" is the answer I get.

Yes, that is it for me. For I know so deeply within that I have given myself the earthly experiences for allowing to experience full freedom - again. Deeply hidden but still felt, I have memories about the first circle of creation that are still holding up this desire for total Freedom.

I feel that Freedom is totally different now, all has changed. I cannot really define it, but feel it. Getting into that experience was what kept me going all the "time" since the experiences that we call the crossing of the Wall of Fire.

Earth is a grand magnifier glass. I feel freedom of Self, of expression, of creation was always my passion. Before Earth I was also on this passionate track. And then, with being able to play in the earthly sandbox, things got even clearer.

And now I feel I am getting closer. Although I know that I am already there. But as I experience how to get there I can say that I feel this fresh breath of Freedom coming through the more and more open door. Ahhhhhhh.

Oh, and it is definitely about Joy. I am learning to play again. I was so densed up for so long. But the playfulness is coming back. This acting-homework is so much fun!

With Love and excitement,

Claudia
France

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I am here for Joy!
Laura
Finland

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I came here to serve humanity, consciousness, Gaia – and that job is done… and a part of me has regretted coming here (since birth I believe; up to recently I felt very scared and confused and lost and alien...). So the question is "why am I STILL here?!?!???" Immediate answer: "Stubbornness." Oh yeah - that's me, but I claim it is also curiosity; where is this creation going next? And hope; life can actually be good in this body with these surroundings even though there's still much drama and suffering and power games and so on! And love... of this creation and its habitants; I feel deep admiration, and I see the beauty and perfection in all that is now. And fascination; the experience is really beyond... and will be even more so??!!

And I have taken the bait; "can you bring in new energy and create with it - figure it out?" The explorer and researcher in me has awakened; "yes I can, and it will be sooo much fun!" Excited - exhilarated - eager. I have no reason to leave.

Lise
Norway

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Because I chose to and still choose to…the "what for" changes all the time. I would have given a different answer every year if you'd asked me that 1,2,3...10 years ago. For now it's to enjoy life and be all that I Am in a physical body.

Joep
USA

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Rampage of Gratitude

I am so grateful for the energy of Tobias who, 10 years ago, grabbed me up and inspired my consciousness to grow, become aware and wake up.
I am so grateful for the Crimson Circle which provided a background of support for all of the things I was to go through.
I am so grateful for Geoffrey Hoppe who courageously brought the energy of Tobias through, pushing his own boundaries to come to deliver messages which would be a huge part of my life.
I am so grateful for Linda Benyo who has given her heart and soul to her husband and the Crimson Circle.
I am so grateful for the people who surround Geoff and Linda and provide the support they need to do their work.
I am so grateful for Norma and Garrett.
I am so grateful for the staff that have been here since the beginning.
I am so grateful for all of the staff who work to bring the Crimson Circle live each month.
I am so grateful for John Kuderka for all of his web expertise.
I am so grateful for Susy and Jean and everyone else.
I am so grateful for Shaumbra and their love.
I am so grateful for Tobias, Adamus, Kuthumi, Metatron, and all of the non-physical beings who have given of their love and energy.
I am so grateful for Source.
I am so grateful for all of the people I have met through the Crimson Circle and connections I have made.
I am so grateful for Story Waters, who I met here, first and Lee Harris.
I am so grateful for my journey.
I am so grateful for the message board which has provided a lot of support to me through the years.
I am so grateful for Geoffrey Hoppe who has so much integrity and has provided amazing leadership for our family.
I am so grateful to be here, Shaumbra.

Patty
USA

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Acting & Role Playing

Thank you for this thread! Your passion, enthusiasm and light-heartedness is very contagious and inspiring.

On Sunday, after reading your post I felt a bit sad. I realized just how often I do not role play or act out other aspects. I always feel a bit self-conscientious and embarrassed when playing out other roles. I guess it just takes a bit of time, some practice and the ability to laugh at oneself.

So, in keeping with Adamus' request to spend time role-playing I found your 'method' very helpful and easy to follow. I went to my imaginary library, and chose a script at random. Aaahh....Queen for a day! I remember thinking, “for a whole day?” Then I heard a familiar voice say, "try it for an hour." Okay that I can do.

First I made myself a delicious breakfast fit for a Queen Margaret, and with my finest china and crystal. While eating I imagined I had endless servants lovingly awaiting my every command and wish. This was a bit difficult at first, as I am not inclined to have others wait on me. But, by dammit, I threw myself into the role, and began to enjoy being treated as royalty.

After I finished eating, I decided to take a stroll by the lake. I put on my finest gown, flowing cream colored satin, and my cloak....crimson velvet of course, and my ruby heart necklace fastened in a diamond setting. Oh, and I always wear my glittering, diamond crown. I never leave the castle without it! FYI: my wardrobe and crown were imaginary, but I did walk with a perfect gait, just as a true Queen would do. As I sauntered gracefully along the path, I felt so many others that had come to see me. They were throwing endless roses, of every color, at my feet. I waved to all my subjects and thanked them for their loyalty.

It was then that a very unexpected sadness came over me. I knew in that moment, I could no longer rule as I had. It was time for me let my 'people' go, to release all responsibility for them. I felt like my imaginary script/role was triggering something bigger, and it had to do with my celestial spiritual family. I talked to all of them, with so much love in my heart. It was time for each one of them to step into their own power, and claim their own grandness and royalty from within. There was no longer any need to have a leader.

At first, they were a bit shocked and upset with me. I told them to get over it. Not really, just kiddin. But, I did remind them that all that they needed was contained within! With that, I threw the grandest celebration in all of the kingdom in honor of each one of them and their new found freedom. I imagined the finest champagne flowing along with the most divine music playing throughout the night.

And then, I walked off alone into the sunset....to make my dramatic, but oh so self-loving exit!

Margaret
USA

http://shaumbraforums.com/ccc/viewtopic.php?f=2&t=3984

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You Are the ‘I’
A Message to Awakening Masters

I want to tell you something that I bet you don’t know

It will enlighten and free you beyond control

Now I want you to consider who you think you are
beyond your personality
your body
possessions
and car

This is incredible wisdom
That came from afar

There’s no speculation
it’s fact
there’s no par

The incredible creation that you are is real

If you still your thoughts
your feelings too
you’ll catch a glimpse of something
and an epiphany occurs

Then it will be amazing to behold
when you awaken to
the real you hiding there
you’ll grow tenfold

Now I’ll tell you the truth that’s been hidden from you

You are the ‘I’
the eternal One
invisible consciousness
infinite Being

You are pure awareness
beyond the mind
pure perfection
you are divine

You are a flawless diamond of consciousness you know

You are free as light
without restrictions
you glow

You have no limitations
you are free to be

You’re indestructible
so there’s nothing to fear

You are a Master of the Universe
an incredible Being

You are eternal you see
just as you are

There’s nothing you have to do or believe
to be who you are

Your being is the gift of the Universe
amazing and free

Just be present here and now
in this moment and be

Be divine perfection
be one with the All

There’s nothing you have to add
to the perfection that you are

You are pure conscious awareness
perfect as is
you are the ‘I’
you are the One

I hope you got the message
simple but true
for your perfection is awaiting
to come out and to bloom

Joe
USA

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